"Think about what your life would be like if your 'giant' wasn't in the way?"
(That line is from an online sermon from my church.)
I've been pondering that question over and over the past several hours. What would my life look like if I defeated the giant of anxiety, panic, and depression? What would my life be like if my health issue was treated effectively?
I suppose, first off, I wouldn't be writing about my struggle after a medium-sized meltdown in the middle of the day. Why did I melt down? Good question. Sometimes I'm fine, and then other times I'll just lose it completely.
I see myself dreaming once more. I used to be a HUGE dreamer. I haven't dreamed in a while, actually. I miss that.
I would be a better wife, mother, daughter, aunt, friend, etc.
I wouldn't be afraid to drive, take risks, or be surrounded by people without feeling like my world is imploding.
That's my short list. I'm sure I could keep going.
We all have a giant. Some are bigger and more intimidating than others. Whatever your giant is, I hope you know that you aren't able to slay it alone. I've quickly come to understand this one recently. My giant appears as massive as Mt.Everest most days. Maybe yours does too. But we are not meant to slay giants.
Don't be afraid to fight it. It's not doing you any good staring at your every moment, taunting you, and sucking the very life from you. If we seek to move ahead and grow and become free again, we must deal with our giants.
I am thankful that I know the Giant-Slayer.
He is never too preoccupied, too overworked, or too great to take on my giants. Nor is He for yours.
Picture your life. Picture it once that giant is out of the way and you can run forward across that valley...that chasm. I'm picturing my own right now. And I'm going to keep fighting because God, the one who specializes in giant-slaying is behind me encouraging me, strengthening me, and pushing me to keep fighting.
We must keep fighting.
I Timothy 6:12 Fight the good fight for the true faith. Hold tightly to the eternal life to which God has called you, which you have declared so well before many witnesses.