Turning the page to motherhood.

"At the very heart of the gospel is sacrifice, and there is perhaps no occupation in the world so intrinsically sacrificial as motherhood. Motherhood is a wonderful opportunity to live the gospel." -Desiring God

This past Friday was my last day working outside our home. It was a surreal and bittersweet moment when I said my final goodbyes and watched the doors close to the school building.

Ever since I was 17 years old I held a job of some sort. My first job was a Hershey Park ride operator. My day consisted of counting grumpy tourists, checking seat belts and pushing a button. I can confidently state it was not a dream job. From there I worked at Salvation Army Thrift Store, where my love of thrifting became more of an obsession. Next, my job as a teacher at a local daycare, where I found my calling as a teacher.  Sprinkle in 2 barista jobs and a photography side job during college to pay for books and school and finally to make the resumΓ© complete, was my last job as a special education instructional assistant in a multiple disabilities classroom.  

My before and after school classroom at the daycare. (beginning of the year)

My before and after school classroom at the daycare. (beginning of the year)

Nanny life.

Nanny life.

My first day at Lynchburg City Schools

My first day at Lynchburg City Schools

Leading up to my maternity leave, I felt a sense of anxiety and uneasiness. I sometimes wondered, "What am I getting myself into?" "Who am I going to talk to every day?" " Am I going to be bored out of my mind?" "Ill have no co-workers or friends"  "Who am I going to help, now?" "How am I going to be influential to the people around me?" "What does a stay at home mom do all day?"

It was in those scary moments that I realized being a mom is a calling in life. It's stepping into a new role, a different career. 

"Jesus said that those who live for themselves will actually have an unfulfilling life, but those who lose their lives for His sake will really experience life."

Being a mom does not mean I no longer have a mission field. It does not mean that I will have no friends.  It certainly doesn't mean I will not have anyone to help. Instead, it is a chance to every day show the love of Christ to my child(ren). A chance to gain new mom friendships. A chance to raise them in the love and truth of the gospel. A chance to sacrifice daily for another human being and show them the love of Jesus in my daily life.

My worth and life is not defined by my jobs I've held or the amount of money I've made in the past 8 years of my life. My life's calling is to love Christ, love others, and to reach out and share the gospel. What an amazing platform motherhood provides to tangibly do this every day. 

 I don't have my daughter here with me now, but I know for sure that motherhood is full of sacrifice; it is full of exciting, scary and draining moments. I have so much more to learn about being a mom. I'm a newbie in this area, but whether you have been a mom for 30+ years or are in the first trimester of your pregnancy, remember the beauty and the calling that the Lord has blessed you with as a mother. Be encouraged today that your role is important and valued!

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