Wow! It's been a long time. Sorry! I've been MIA for a while now, but I can explain, I promise.
My husband and I packed up all we owned and moved across the country from Fort Lauderdale to Texas. TEXAS (the greatest country in the world apparently)! I never, ever, ever thought I would move here. I always thought that if we left Fort Lauderdale, we'd just move back to North Carolina. To be with our family! But no, no, God had different plans. His ways are not my ways.. that's for sure.
Will and I have always committed to one another that if God opened a door we'd be willing to go and follow Him wherever. When you pray for God's wisdom and guidance, when you're willing to go anywhere and just give it all up to Him... He will truly answer your prayer, and send you to where you least expect to ever go.
Through this move with our two, two year olds, I've learned a lot of things about life. One of these things that Will and I have learned is that everything that we have, see, and do in life is grace.
I've never really thought about the mundane in life being grace. The hug from my daughter or son, grace. Or the food that I have more than enough of 24/7 is grace. Doing the dishes, grace.
Jesus has given me a new perspective in life the past month, and I hope I don't ever forget it ... or become complacent about it.
He has taught me as a mother, wife, friend.... that the fact that I can get up every morning and serve my family, that's grace. Every frustration, sadness, loneliness, anger... all of those bad days are just trying to make me believe the lie, that this life is about me. It's not about me or you, it's all about Jesus. Jesus lived the life that I should be living now (but can't because I'm a rotten sinner), and He died the death that was meant for me.
I'm praying that I remember that even through hard times, God's grace has still be given to me. Because I get to experience God's love and peace through those hard times. That's grace!
I don't deserve anything. I don't deserve the good or the bad (cause the bad isn't that bad when you compare it to what I deserve)
I just realized, this move in particular, that even though my mom and dad aren't right down the road from me, or even though I can't go rescue my sister and babysit her kids on a whim.... even though I miss my brother terribly and wish I could help him in person plan his wedding... that God is all that I truly need in life. His grace is enough. His goodness is enough. Where HE has called Will and I is more than enough to bring peace, love, joy, gladness into my life. My life is His... and I won't really be home until I'm in heaven with Him.
I miss my family and friends everyday, but like my dad said when we moved to Florida, "we'll be together for eternity, you won't be happy unless you're where God wants you to be" I think about this daily, and I'm so thankful for an amazing, supportive family and friends in my life who will be with me in heaven one day for eternity. "I Just can't wait!" :)
ps - Texas is a pretty awesome place. I'm not going to lie. So far, it hasn't disappointed us.