the spider.


About ten days ago, a medium-sized spider came to nest at my bedroom window. 


Every morning since then, I would do my morning ritual, of pulling up the blinds, and there he would remain.  


Quiet. Steady. Waiting.  


I really didn’t pay him (or her) much mind; until this morning. 


As I stood at my window, wiping away tears cried over dwindling bank accounts and an endless bout of morning sickness, I could hear His voice. 


God wanted me to watch the spider. 


It was then that I realized that this eight-legged artist was sent by God, for me.


The spider didn’t budge.  




Completely still. Fully content. Waiting for God’s provision.  


The spider was surrounded by a masterpiece. A reflection of his hard word and perseverance. 


As a master web-weaver, the spider’s God-given ability to create something so incredibly complex and beautiful, is quite a feat for something so small.  


The fact that he can’t even see the full picture of what he’s created, at least from our vantage point, is inspiring. 


As the spider trusted in the abilities God gave him long ago, he seemed to dance his familiar dance, and then: this masterpiece of effectiveness was born. A tool for God to use to provide for the little spider.


Only a tool. God does the providing.


For the little spider, there’s simply no time to admire his work. Now he must wait, as he stills himself to nothing more than a tiny breath, waiting on God. Waiting for that next provision.  


The same goes for our own lives.  


Such potentially beautiful and effective webs we weave, yet never seeing the full effect, we trust God’s vantage point as He gives us the abilities to further His Kingdom.  


I’ve lived my entire life as an unwavering arachnophobe. But, I guarantee you, I will never look at a spider the same way again.  


I wonder if he’ll be there tomorrow morning. I almost think he won’t be, having effectively taught me the lesson that needed teaching.  


Let me ask you:  

Do you have trouble waiting on the Lord? Trusting Him?  

What about actively using your embedded gifts and talents and giving the outcomes to God? 


Do you even know the gifts God has given you? You do have at least one, you know!  


If not, ask Him to reveal those to you today.  


And then wait. Wait for His answer. 


And always remember to do your very best, but allow God to do the rest.  


Be like the spider.  


Love, Alicia  





God's Purpose or Mine?

 "We tend to think that if Jesus Christ compels us to do something and we are obedient to Him, He will lead us to great success.


We should never have the thought that our dreams of success are God's purpose for us. In fact, His purpose may be exactly the opposite.  


We have the idea that God is leading us toward a particular end or a desired goal, but He is not.  


The question of whether or not we arrive at a particular goal is of little importance, and reaching it becomes merely an episode along the way.  


What we see as only the process of reaching a particular end, God sees as the goal itself. 



What is my vision of God's purpose for me? 


Whatever it may be, His purpose is for me to depend on Him and on His power  now.


If I can stay  



and unconfused

while in the middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me.  



God is not working toward a particular finish--His purpose is the process itself. 


What he desires for me is that I see "Him walking on the sea" with no shore, no access, no goal in sight, but simply having the absolute certainty that everything is all right because I see "Him walking on the sea" (Mark 6:49).


It is the process, not the outcome, that is glorifying to God.  



God's training is for now, not later. His purpose is for this very minute, not for sometime in the future.  

We have nothing to do with what will follow our obedience, and we are wrong to concern ourselves with it. 

What people call preparation, God sees as the goal itself. 

God's purpose is to enable me to see that He can walk on the storms of my life right now. If we have a further goal in mind, we are not paying enough attention to the present time. 

However, if we realize that moment-by-moment obedience is the goal, then each moment as it comes is precious." 

-O.Chambers, My Utmost For His Highest


When hoarding equals a lack of faith.

Just enough.

For today.

When gathering enough for your tomorrow's is a sin.

Lack of trust. Peering into the next day and the next can certainly get us into a bad way.

A bad habit, in fact.


Have you ever wondered why God didn't want to allow the Israelites to gather more manna than they could eat for the day?!

I mean, what's wrong with putting the leftovers in Tupperware containers for the week?!

But you see, God knew that if he allowed the hoarding of extra food, that His stubborn people would begin to rely on their own plans and abilities.

God also knows that while being smart about the future is wise, living in those tomorrow's is not. He wants us fully present in the now. Fully reliant on Him today for today's provisions.


He gives us just enough.

He really does. Just enough for today's everything's. Enough endurance. Enough hope. Enough sustenance. Enough grace. Enough mercy. Enough. Not an abundance so we can spill over into the next weeks mishaps, but enough for right at this moment. This very second.

Why? Because He wants us. He wants our attention. He wants us to breathe Him in and exhale anticipating the next inhale. Because He loves us that much. He is so crazy about our well-being and longs so much for us to understand Him that He designed this life in such a way that just five minutes of navigating on our own feels like we're sinking the ship.

Because we are. We do. We constantly take over and raise the white flag when things get too difficult. 

Just be here now. Just be. Here. Now. With Me. And breathe. Allow Me to feed you what you need. I already know what you need. No. No. Don't keep filling your arms with these loads. Put it all down. Just keep allowing me to provide. You keep your eyes right here. Don't move. This is where you thrive. I Am your manna.

Exodus 16: 19  Then Moses told them, “Do not keep any of it until morning.” 20  But some of them didn’t listen and kept some of it until morning. But by then it was full of maggots and had a terrible smell. Moses was very angry with them.

Exodus 16:19 Then Moses told them, “Do not keep any of it until morning.”20 But some of them didn’t listen and kept some of it until morning. But by then it was full of maggots and had a terrible smell. Moses was very angry with them.