Talents

the spider.

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About ten days ago, a medium-sized spider came to nest at my bedroom window. 

 

Every morning since then, I would do my morning ritual, of pulling up the blinds, and there he would remain.  

 

Quiet. Steady. Waiting.  

 

I really didn’t pay him (or her) much mind; until this morning. 

 

As I stood at my window, wiping away tears cried over dwindling bank accounts and an endless bout of morning sickness, I could hear His voice. 

 

God wanted me to watch the spider. 

 

It was then that I realized that this eight-legged artist was sent by God, for me.

 

The spider didn’t budge.  

 

 

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Completely still. Fully content. Waiting for God’s provision.  

 

The spider was surrounded by a masterpiece. A reflection of his hard word and perseverance. 

 

As a master web-weaver, the spider’s God-given ability to create something so incredibly complex and beautiful, is quite a feat for something so small.  

 

The fact that he can’t even see the full picture of what he’s created, at least from our vantage point, is inspiring. 

 

As the spider trusted in the abilities God gave him long ago, he seemed to dance his familiar dance, and then: this masterpiece of effectiveness was born. A tool for God to use to provide for the little spider.

 

Only a tool. God does the providing.

 

For the little spider, there’s simply no time to admire his work. Now he must wait, as he stills himself to nothing more than a tiny breath, waiting on God. Waiting for that next provision.  

 

The same goes for our own lives.  

 

Such potentially beautiful and effective webs we weave, yet never seeing the full effect, we trust God’s vantage point as He gives us the abilities to further His Kingdom.  

 

I’ve lived my entire life as an unwavering arachnophobe. But, I guarantee you, I will never look at a spider the same way again.  

 

I wonder if he’ll be there tomorrow morning. I almost think he won’t be, having effectively taught me the lesson that needed teaching.  

 

Let me ask you:  

Do you have trouble waiting on the Lord? Trusting Him?  

What about actively using your embedded gifts and talents and giving the outcomes to God? 

 

Do you even know the gifts God has given you? You do have at least one, you know!  

 

If not, ask Him to reveal those to you today.  

 

And then wait. Wait for His answer. 

 

And always remember to do your very best, but allow God to do the rest.  

 

Be like the spider.  

 

Love, Alicia  

 

 

 

 

Embracing the Gift of Rejection

Play it safe.

 

That's the way I would approach life before I opened myself up to constant rejection. 

 

Sometimes, well, a lot of times, just the fear of being rejected can keep us from moving forward. 

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It just so happens that three of the biggest parts of my life are full of rejection and little dashes of acceptance sprinkled here and there. 

 

The thing is, we can't make people accept what we have to offer. 

 

The whole "bringing a horse to water..." creed has never meant more to me, than it does now. I get it...

 

From sharing the Gospel, to showing others a more natural way to approach healthcare, and to encouraging others to give my writing a chance, there's this pattern that follows the sharing of those things that is hard to accept. 

 

"You're project is not what we're looking for..." 

 

"I know I'm going to hell, and I'm okay with that..." 

 

"Thanks, but no thanks..." 

 

"Maybe, next time..." 

 

I could go on and on.  

 

I'll be honest with you: my heart stings each time, sometimes I cry, sometimes I get angry, but every time I think, "If you would just give me a chance."

 

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Embracing rejection is not something that any of us are good at. It's certainly not something that we expect or we get used to.  

 

I consider all of the ones who have really made a difference. Those brave ones that went thru years and years of hearing "Not now...but thanks..." . 

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Over and over and over again.  

 

J.K.Rowling. (The manuscript for Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone was rejected by 12 different publishers before being published). 

Oprah Winfrey. (She was told she should perhaps find another career entirely after being told to stop meshing her emotions through her news reporting). 

Albert Einstein. (Was told he would amount to nothing because he couldn't speak or read until later in childhood). 

Thomas Edison.  (His inventions failed thousands of times before he got it right.) 

Walt Disney.  (Fired because he "lacked imagination"). 

Emily Dickinson. (Less than a dozen of her poems were published while she was alive. They only saw the value of her work posthumously).  

 

I could go on. 

 

Maybe rejection will never leave us smiling. Maybe we won't ever "get over it" every time it comes our way.  

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I believe the way to truly embrace rejection is by understanding that it's just part of the journey.  

 

You may feel that a piece of you chips away with every back turned. But, in reality, the chipping just reminds you that this life is worth living and feeling for. 

 

We can choose to leave the pieces where they fell, or we can pick them up, and make a beautiful mosaic.  

Maybe our lives are a little like lattes. Swirls of bitter and sweet. Creating a masterpiece of colors and tastes for others to enjoy.  

Maybe our lives are a little like lattes. Swirls of bitter and sweet. Creating a masterpiece of colors and tastes for others to enjoy.  

 

So we just keep sharing anyway. Because the next share could be the next "Yes". If it's important enough to you, you'll keep attempting. Driven purely by the passions within. The passion to get people to finally understand.  

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Because someday, they just might. As long as you keep embracing rejection along the way. 

 

love, Alicia